This is my last blog and first off I want to thank you all for taking the time to read it and hope you can actually make it through this one. (It addresses some boring topics) I want to thank all of the BGC fans. You guys rock and your positive messages really mean a lot. I also want to thank the people at Oxygen and all the staff from Bunim/Murray. You guys have been wonderful and I appreciate everything you have done for us. I have a lot of great things in the works and I would love for you all to keep updated. My personal website is at www.ambermeade.net and I will keep it updated.

Watching the reunion was very difficult to do because I am in such a great place in my life right now. All that drama seemed to take me back to a place that I have left behind. There is so much to cover now that the end of BGC is finally here. I will try my best to give you my thoughts and feelings as this chapter closes for me. First I truly wish all the bad girls the best of luck with all their future endeavors! Work hard and play later, because the clock is ticking.

The season finale was both good and bad to watch. I loved watching us girls as we said goodbye to the house and each other. We really had gone through an experience of a lifetime and to leave on a good note was a great thing.

The events leading up to our goodbye were not so fun to watch, specifically, the Mike/Tiffany/myself incident. I wish I had handled everything differently. I should have said it made me uncomfortable in the moment rather than playing along using my humor to mask the way I was feeling. I knew no harm was to come because Tiffany and all the girls were there but I had felt uncomfortable and wished the whole thing wouldn't have happened. I hadn't even really met the guy and then he was up there feeling me up. I should have just said something and if I did I know he would've stopped. He didn't know I was feeling that way and I can understand where he might have thought I was welcoming it. I had flirted with him on the phone and was super excited to meet him.

My experience in the BGC was one I will never forget. I am grateful that I was given the opportunity. I walked away with four awesome friends each of us from different walks of life. My life is so vastly different since the show was film and even after the reunion. I open myself up and gain a better understanding of Tiffany.

Limo Tricks, porno premieres, contradicting b*tches, my a$$ cheeks, Mexico, ice throwing, and street-fighting... Just another week in the BGC!!

Yes, we went to the world premiere of a PORNO film. Every dream of a real BAD GIRL just came true!!! If you're into that type of thing!! Amber M. was so accommodating showing us her (BJ) techniques in the limo!! Thanks Amber!!! Jessie James! How awesome is she?? It was kind of rude for Amber B. to talk sh*t about Jessie James and her choice of work since she was enjoying the festivities just like everyone else. After all, her head was in the "pirate's" crotch!! Isn't having sex on TV just like filming a porno?? Everyone see's it!!!

Wow, this episode is really hard to watch. I was at such a low point in Cancun. I wasn't going to let anyone ruin my trip and that is exactly what happened. I really didn't deserve the hostility yet I was getting the brunt of everyone's anger.

The Un-fab 5 were being ridiculous in Mexico and as much as I tried there was no getting though to them. They operated with a double standard. They could threaten us, destroy our stuff, play malicious pranks on us, and treat us like outcasts but if we did any of those things there would be hell to pay. They were all hypocrites and since they were doing all those things they assumed that Amber and I were as well. I am sorry but I don't operate like that. As much as I may act silly and goofy I am really mature and I don't play those types of games.

A2K, Pranks, Cheers, Boys and Punk Girls... Oh MY! I can't help but LMAO when I watch the show. It is too funny!

Amber B.'s scary a$$ said: I can't leave out the house. I wish KC was in the house to protect me! Then she was waiting by the phone for her call: Oh KC help please!!! B*tch, suck it up you are a bad girl!!! Is this the same b*tch who wanted to call the police on KC for terrorist threats? Wasn't she scared that KC was going to stab her in the middle of the night? But she is willing to have her sleep in her bed?? What a Joke. What a f*cking BAD GIRL!!

Cookie knew her girl talked sh*t and was running between Ashley and Sarah. Amber B talked sh*t with Ailea too and she f*cking hates Ailea. Hell, I'm so over of this! WE ALL TALKED SH*T!!!! Therefore, WE ALL ARE FAKE a$$ SH*T TALKERS!!!

Tiffany was the one I always wanted to be close with. I loved this girl and no matter what she did I always forgave her. In the beginning of the show she was so mature and really neutral. She didn't act like a fool and always had a very open approach to things. As the show went on we became closer yet further apart. We would have great times together cuddling and laughing and then other moments she would be so angry and just yell and scream at me. I wanted to be close friends but the moment we were getting somewhere either I or another one of The (Un)Fab 5 would make her angry at me. One moment she would be braiding my hair and telling me how much she loves me and the next she would be telling me she would cut my a$$ up. Although, I don't normally have friendships that rocky it just ended up that way.

The anger that came from our fight at the Key Club turned into anger towards "The Ambers." This was around the time when Ailea started going off the deep end. We had a conversation at one point where she was expressing that she didn't want to end up like her mom. She was really worried because her mom was an alcoholic and she didn't want to end up like that. This was around the time that Ailea started drinking more and started acting crazy. The night of the Key Club, I don't even remember seeing her flip out until we were outside of the club. There was no one out there to fight and she started going crazy. She was fighting the air and looked like she was going to attack a ghost. I was really worried about her at that point. She started flipping out in the limo and was kicking everything in it. She was losing it. I felt bad for her and I wanted to approach her and get her to recognize her self-destructive behavior but imagine if I (her enemy) approached her and told her I was concerned that she was going crazy. She would not have accepted it! So I decided to just let her be and hope that one of her "friends" would recognize her self-destructive behavior.

I don't recall the "Gummi Bear" caper all that much. Most of the stupid sh*t the A2 did is just one big blur at this point. I don't even recall them being in my food until I saw my COOKIE on TV!!! I think I may have laughed about it at first, but then I got upset because who was going to clean all those sticky bastards up? I am a neat freak.

What you guys don't know is that we pulled pranks all throughout our time there, but you only see like the tail end of the pranks. Don't start none, won't be none!!! To everyone with the sticks in their a$$es, take 'em out!!!! No Ambers were harmed during the duration of BGC!!!! Hell, we were stuck with each other for weeks without any other outside connection to our own respective worlds. What do you expect, tea and cookies? No pun intended.

I guess what happened in Vegas stayed in Vegas!!! So let's talk about what YOU saw.

We rode in the car and I slept pretty much the whole time (in the car that is). Posed in front of the Welcome to Vegas sign; that was so much FUN!!! (HIGHLIGHT REEL MOMENT)

Our room was so AWESOME!!! Dude we fought over who was going to sleep with who, because we love being with each other that much. We went to dinner and ate and ate. The food was great. A2 got engaged, YEAH! I was so darn happy for them.

I think the other girls in the house just felt threatened by Amber's and my friendship. That is why they joined together to create their "gang", the Fab Four. I love to have a good time, and I have a lot more fun doing things with other people rather than just hanging out by myself. I like to feed off of other people's energy so why would I intentionally scratch off five other girls? A few of the other girls in the house were always talking about "season 2" of the Bad Girls Club and about how the girls were separated into two groups. They were continuously focusing on it and I think they wanted to re-enact it because of their lack of originality and creativity. Thus, they made nicknames for "the division", "The Ambers" aka "The Tricklets (never heard this)" and some other lame name for their group (Fab 4)? They can go on and on about how Amber and I created it, but did Amber and I make up a nickname for us or them? No! Did they make up a nickname for us or them? Yes! It is clear who made the division.

After the fight between Whitney and me in the limo we got back to the house and there is a picture up of the new girl, Ashley! Amber was upstairs passed out and the other girls went crazy on Ashley's picture. Ripping it, burning it, kicking it, throwing it, and just destroying it. They were acting like a bunch of wild hyenas. I guess what better way to take their resentment out about me than on the new girl's photo, I should've been happy! I thought the girls were acting crazy though. I was kind of excited for a new girl to enter the house. Can you blame me? I just wanted someone who was fun and that I could get along with. She was pretty with dark hair and good looks but she would definitely be competition for a few of the girls in the house.

It was funny seeing how we reacted to Ms. Ashley. Me hitting the door and saying, "ugly b*tch." Boston calling her "Trashley." (That ended up being her nick-name!) ALL of us sitting/standing on the stairs giving her a hard time, A2 included! Fun times. Good times. It was too f-ing funny! LOL. Ashley can party though, or "hang and bang" like Sarah and I called it. Ashley is a tough gal and could talk through any shots we threw her way. Hell, she expected it! I gave her props while we were talking in the smoke room.

However, Amber M. likes to agitate and stir the pot and deflect issues from her to others. That's Amber M. She is good at that. That is the difference between the A2 and me. I will tell you what I am saying or feeling about you to you! Never behind your back. I am not a sugar coater. A2 won't which did cause a issue in the house for me. They hid behind "The Amber Show" and Amber B hid behind everyone!!!! They only wanted to be with each other. How can you learn anything about others if you only segregate yourselves?

Wow, I put myself in a catch 22. First choice, I could deny it. I am an honest person and it was a joke taken way too far. Or I could just accept it. Hmmm.... This could actually benefit me. I mean what better way to stay on the receiving end, and I won't even have to explain why. Would they dare even ask? Not a chance! Ouch! Hahaha! The latter sounds like so much more fun.

The Ambers sneaking off together was always BAD NEWS!! They were always alienating themselves.

I was in shock to see Tanisha from BGC 2! I had to tell my mother first... just in case it went down! I was thinking: "This has to be a joke right?" I could not stop laughing. The situation was just too funny. Tanisha moving in with us? Then she starts laying down rules! WTF?!?! I started thinking: "Is she fucking serious?" So, she let us in on the BIG JOKE -- she's not crazy enough to move back into the BGC house. On the real though, Tanisha is cool people.

First off, Kayla and I were arguing over her using Amber's and my tip towards her portion of the bill. It was not $2 either. We were going to leave $4 on a $60 tab after the server had bought us drinks and appetizers. If Kayla couldn't pay for her dinner then she shouldn't be ordering half the menu. Amber and I ended up covering the difference after Kayla threw a fit. We asked her to drop it so we could go to the next bar and have a fun night. Kayla was the one who didn't drop it. She was sulking in the corner of the bar and throwing a little temper tantrum. All I wanted to do was have a good time so I kept getting her shots and fed into her tantrum by trying to cheer her up.

Finally, she dropped it and bought me a drink and made sure to give the bartender a generous tip. As we left I tried to explain the concept that over-tipping one person doesn't make up for under-tipping the first. She started sulking and walking behind me at that point. I was sick of her always throwing a fit when she didn't get her way. What I didn't understand at the time was that I was probably embarrassing her. I was trying to get her to see my point and stop being a baby and that is what led to the fighting in the car. We were arguing and we BOTH were not listening to each other. That is where it all went sour. She wanted me to stop talking to her and I didn't. In turn, she started hitting me. I was trying to grab her arms to get her to stop but she wouldn't. Amber was freaking out so I asked her to pull over so we could finish it. I really didn't want to fight her, but I was sick of her always walking all over me. At some point you just need to stand up for yourself. When I got out she put her hands on me first again and then kicked me first again. I am not innocent and I realize now that I should've just dropped it. I was drunk and all I could think about was defending myself. I was in no way trying to get her kicked out of the house but I was sick of her attitude and for her always blowing up over nothing.

As for the fight in the bathroom in episode 4, it started because Amber opened the door and it bumped into a girl. The girl really didn't even care. Her friend, however, was pissed. She yelled at Amber for hitting her friend so Amber said she was sorry. Then the girl continued to tell Amber that she could've hurt her friend. Amber said, "It was a good thing she wasn't hurt." The girl got offended by that comment and got in Amber's face. Amber said something like, "I wouldn't do that. You don't know who we are."

At that point I was like: Sh*t! Amber is digging her hole deeper so I pulled her into a bathroom stall. The girls were screaming and banging on our bathroom door. Amber was pretty smart and wanted to stay in the bathroom but I opened the door and that's when they grabbed my throat and pushed me to one side of the bathroom. Then the others pushed Amber to another side. I didn't even realize they grabbed me by the neck and I just remember trying to save Amber's a$$ and I grabbed her and pulled her out of the bathroom.

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It was fun trying to get the men/women to buy panties and naughty things but as the day went on, I was over it. However, I did choose my outfit wisely; I am no hooker!!

Amber M. (Cookie) was so good at selling that she deserved to win the cash prize. Kayla trying to cheat was dumb -- spending money to win money. Kayla just didn't take losing well. I wasn't sure if it was losing or losing to Cookie that pissed her off, but she was pissed.

I felt bad for Boston losing her friend. Sarah being there for Boston during her time of need was awesome, she did a great job of helping Boston with her grief.

Marcus and I are just friends. He is such a cool guy to be around. I let him know I had a guy back at home so that way he would know where I was coming from. I also let my guy know about Marcus. I never want to lie and play a game. That is not the type of girl I am. It is always best to be up front!!

Marcus and I only went hot-tubbing -- that's all!!! The girls somehow got locked out of the house!!! The house has VIDEO everywhere I am no FOOL!!!

I loved self-defense class. I am a physical person, so it was right up my alley. I learned a lot from that class. Once again KC was not getting the hang of it, so she felt a bit awkward. Another reason for KC to pout and not have a good time with us.

I really don't like how I handled that night at all. This was my worst moment on BGC! Marcus put so much on the line for us and it turned into this BIG MESS. But hey it happened and you just got to go on. I was truly sorry for all that happened that night. My emotions got the better of me.

The Ambers say they were being choked up in the bathroom by these girls. These girls were calling them all types of names and threatening to hurt them. So, Amber B. informed me and KC what had taken place. Of course KC and I got upset. See I have the motherly thing going -- nobody messes with my babies (friends). There is going back and forth inside the club then it is taken outside where both sides are yelling at each other. Not sure how I got on top of the limo but hey, there I was throwing up Chi-Town!! I remember Marcus holding me back but I was just so MAD I was not LISTENING to anyone. This anger just came over me out of nowhere. Maybe hearing all the sh*t those girls were saying just brought me to a boiling point. All the house issues I was holding on to just flowed out into that night.

Breaking up in to the two group was the BEST!! I had a great time letting loose finally!!! Body shots off of a HOT ASS man --Whooo Hoo! Glad I was in KC group! LMAO.

Wasn't present for the "KC and Amber M." smack down; let's just say Amber M. held her own. So proud of her. Way to GO!!!! The number "1" rule of the house is no HITTING at all. Their fight didn't really matter. I was so over KC and her melodramas. Sh*t let her ASS LEAVE!

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This week's episode was just another drama filled week in the mean girls house.... I mean bad girls house. Fighting over petty issues, getting jealous of each other, and what would it be if we didn't add fuel to the fire by adding in an occasional douchebag guy.

As for Amber, did she really leave her loser boyfriend back at home to date another loser? I wonder if Greg is still roommates and sharing a bed with his ex-girlfriend.

Kayla's dress ripped; not just a little, but all the way from the bottom to the top. That would suck and she had every right to be upset. Where things went wrong was when she was throwing a temper tantrum and declining all the clothes we were offering. You say you don't want to be the center of attention yet you throw your clothes across the limo and throw a fit. At that point, we should've washed our hands clean of you for the night and let you take the limo home. Instead, we fed into it.

All of us girls are attention seekers. We wouldn't be on the show if we weren't. What I think is funny is that the majority of the girls were getting upset because Kayla was always the center of attention and they didn't like the Bad Girls Club being the "Kayla show". What they didn't understand is that Kayla wouldn't always be the center of attention if you didn't feed into it every time she goes off. Kayla probably wouldn't create as much drama on her own if all the other girls in the house didn't give her a good reaction. They are giving her a reaction and igniting the fire by giving her more attention. When a person is crying for attention like Kayla was, you need to just walk away and not feed into it. This is unless you are intimidated, which I think is the case with Kayla's clan.

Tiffany was just a time bomb waiting to explode. She warned everyone and after she was pushed way too many times she went off. It's about time her true colors showed. Kayla didn't have anything to say to Tiffany when she went off on her and this showed the other girls that Kayla wasn't the top dog anymore.

The fight outside with Ailea was over some petty issue (imagine that) before I commented about not wanting to join her every time she went out with Kevin. And then she gets mad because I don't want to be two hours early for dinner! Do you think someone who dates older men could maybe handle going to the date all by herself. Most women who date older men do it because they want someone more mature, obviously not the case with this one. She is like a child. She cries over everything and has no idea how to handle anything, let alone how to do it in a mature way. And can you believe that he is still going to talk to her after she admits she is crazy? He must not be in it for the long haul -- does arm candy sound fitting?

This episode just confirms my belief that Ailea needs serious help. Ailea was always trying to make issues out of nothing. And to think that she was picked on in high school, it's not that difficult to figure out why. She admits on television that she is "really crazy and that she was in a mental institution." I think that now is the time she should take herself in for a checkup. I doubt that will happen though since she knows she will be there for a long, long, time.

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I was happy that what was shown was the real Tiffany. I have a great heart and am a caring person but when pushed it turns really UGLY. I felt like the fight between me and KC was justifiable and it was just a matter of time before it went down. KC is an insecure person and had an issue with race that was had blown up in her head. I did nothing but try to help KC; when she was sick, I was the one who took her to hospital. I did nothing but try to care for her, help her and be a friend to her. But when she decided to try and take her anger out on me and talk behind my back, I felt like she was definitely fake. Like I told KC, I don't deal with fake people; I'm real and if she wanted trouble it would get cleaned up "Chicago Style"!

I felt like Kayla completely over reacted about her dress; one minute she was fine and the next she was snapping out on me for no reason. She was never consistent with her attitude and I was tired of it being the Kayla Show.

The Ambers are a real trip...every time they had something to say, they never said it to the anyone in the house! They used "The Amber Show" as a way to talk about everyone behind their backs and that's fake! Besides, if the Ambers had a problem with Kevin then you shouldn't have went out with him or ate the food he paid for...you didn't have a problem with him then huh...

Now, the situation with Marcus was definitely shown in an awkward light. I let it be known that I have a boyfriend at home that I love and care about dearly. Marcus was just a really cool guy that we hung out with.

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