All's Well That Ends Bad: Amber M's Take

The season finale was both good and bad to watch. I loved watching us girls as we said goodbye to the house and each other. We really had gone through an experience of a lifetime and to leave on a good note was a great thing.

The events leading up to our goodbye were not so fun to watch, specifically, the Mike/Tiffany/myself incident. I wish I had handled everything differently. I should have said it made me uncomfortable in the moment rather than playing along using my humor to mask the way I was feeling. I knew no harm was to come because Tiffany and all the girls were there but I had felt uncomfortable and wished the whole thing wouldn't have happened. I hadn't even really met the guy and then he was up there feeling me up. I should have just said something and if I did I know he would've stopped. He didn't know I was feeling that way and I can understand where he might have thought I was welcoming it. I had flirted with him on the phone and was super excited to meet him.

I guess watching it now I wish I would've put a stop to it in the moment and hopefully I won't be in that situation ever again but if I was I would need to say something in the moment, not a week later. When you wait to bring something like that up 'til later and not immediately you will get reactions similar to Tiffany's. She was being protective of her friend and I can understand where she was coming from. Do I think she overreacted? Yes. Can I blame her? No. I can only judge myself and my actions and I wish I would've handled myself differently.

I guess when I brought the whole situation to Tiffany's attention I was looking for a friend to confide in and I guess for her acceptance. She was always spouting off about being real and I was trying to do just that. She wants you to bring things to her attention but then when you do, she cannot accept it. I guess my feelings on Tiffany are that she can be a bit hypocritical, but I guess we all can. I wasn't trying to make a huge scene about it but I think that is what Tiffany felt I was doing. I wasn't trying to attack her "brother" or Tiffany I was just confiding in a friend.

Saying goodbye to the girls was sad. I had spent many days in that house wishing I could say goodbye but when it finally came down to it I was sad to say goodbye. We had come so far and to leave on a good note was a great thing.

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