As difficult as it was I really tried to voice my opposition to their tactics. I approached them at lunch to try and get them to open up a little and see things from a different perspective and also to get their opinion as well. That did not go over well. They ended up getting extremely defensive and wouldn't hear anything I had to say. Tiffany was sitting there telling me to say what I think yet when I did she told me that she would cut my a$$ up. To say what I was thinking was the point of me talking to them at the lunch but of course I got shot down because they got completely defensive and couldn't handle the truth. That was such bullshit!

I think it was funny how much those girls sat around and talked about how they had each other's back. In my opinion, I think a lot of them were just followers and were begging for acceptance. Whitney had her nose so far up Tiffany's a$$ when she was looking for the MC and then coming back to tell Tiffany she had her "backbone." And Ailea! Her rant about how dumb Amber B. looked for holding my purse as I was dancing was ridiculous. I hate losing stuff so I appreciate Amber B. for holding my purse and I would do the same for her. Ailea was so stupid for getting upset over it.

As far as the night of the jump goes I really didn't even do anything wrong. I was dancing by myself and having a good time. Earlier in the day at lunch they made it very clear that they didn't want anything to do with us and they didn't have our backs. Here the double standard comes into play again! They expect us to drop everything and have their backs when they don't even have ours.

I tell you what. If anyone jumped any of my roommates (even Ailea) I would've been there in a second to defend them. Hell, after I got kicked out of the Wet Body Contest I even went downstairs and cheered for Ashley and Sarah. I was mad they lost as well but got over it quickly and started having a good time with the people that came to Mexico to have a good time -- strangers.

The fight went pretty much how I remembered it. I was really drunk but all I remember was my roommates attacking me. I thought they were all in on it but I see it a little differently now. It's obvious that Ailea and Whiney attacked me and you can't really see what Ashley was doing. Sarah was trying to hold Ailea back and Amber B. was just yelling for us to stop. I was the one with my head pulled down from Whitney pulling my hair so I couldn't see what you all saw.

All I knew was that I was getting attacked and I went into "fight or flight" mode. I pulled off my shoe to use as a weapon against anyone that was trying to hurt me. Of course I would use it on Whitney and Ailea. I pleaded with Tiffany to get those b*tches away from me and then she came at me. I realize now that she was just trying to get the shoe from me but by the way she approached me I thought she was coming at me. I don't think Tiffany meant for any harm to come to me but by taking away my weapon she was disarming me. Whitney and Ailea were out for blood and when I lost my balance they went in for the kill. They started kicking me. It takes a lot for me to break down but at this point I was so angry and hurt that I just couldn't handle it anymore.

I also think it is funny that some of the girls are posting blogs now about it being too bad the viewers don't see how malicious and mean-hearted me and Amber B. were. I think some of the girls are finally seeing how ridiculous they look and are trying to put the blame on "The Ambers". People who can't take accountability for their actions do that so they don't have to face the truth about themselves. I have been there as well.

To tell you the truth, we all looked ridiculous that night. OMG I just watched an extra clip of myself dancing on Amber B. after the contest and it is so embarrassing. Sarah and Ashley got so upset about losing a stupid contest when it was clear from the crowd that I should've won. HAHA just kidding! Tiffany got so heated and crying about the DJ accusing her of throwing ice. Although, I am not trying to use alcohol to excuse us for our actions that night it really did play a huge part.

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