I think the other girls in the house just felt threatened by Amber's and my friendship. That is why they joined together to create their "gang", the Fab Four. I love to have a good time, and I have a lot more fun doing things with other people rather than just hanging out by myself. I like to feed off of other people's energy so why would I intentionally scratch off five other girls? A few of the other girls in the house were always talking about "season 2" of the Bad Girls Club and about how the girls were separated into two groups. They were continuously focusing on it and I think they wanted to re-enact it because of their lack of originality and creativity. Thus, they made nicknames for "the division", "The Ambers" aka "The Tricklets (never heard this)" and some other lame name for their group (Fab 4)? They can go on and on about how Amber and I created it, but did Amber and I make up a nickname for us or them? No! Did they make up a nickname for us or them? Yes! It is clear who made the division.
Before the Vegas trip I took the effort to talk to a few of the girls and presented them with the idea that if this so called division was developing then we should ride in the cars with the people we knew the least. AKA I would have to ride with Ailea and Whitney. Dreadful! Although, this did not excite me I was hoping it would help us start to understand more about one another. The Fab 4 did not let that happen. They sat around in the car and talked about how it wasn't going to be any other way. I reached out and they were too stubborn and stuck on creating a division that they didn't even realize it. Looking back now, at that point I wish I would've spent more time with Amber. We had fun, why did I have to make excuses for spending more time with a friend?
When Amber and I hung out there was no drama. We did fun, silly things that the other girls could never begin to understand, let alone, enjoy. (Read their blogs at oxygen.com.) That is why we usually did them alone. Once they expressed interest in what we were doing we tried to include them. We wanted to get married and had specific roles for each of the girls to include them in the wedding. Since we reached out and included them they took advantage of it and then went straight to the confessional to talk about how stupid we were. They just didn't want Amber and I to do anything that would take the attention from their sh*t-talking selves.
Now, I wish Amber and I would've gotten married by ourselves. It could've lasted a week maybe even a month. Instead, we included our roommates and they just sucked most of the fun out of it.
I can understand that some people may think Amber and I are stupid, but to tell you the truth we have a damn good time being it. I am confident and intelligent and if I feel like doing silly things then so be it. It is fun and if I get enjoyment out of it I will keep doing it. I realize now that some of the things I did or said may have offended others and I apologize. I don't "intentionally" hurt people unless they hurt me. That still may not give me right to hurt them back but that is how I handled conflict. Life is all about growing and learning and I am taking it one day at a time.
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