she's really passionate about life and stuff. "While at first glance she may seem like just an ordinary person," Simon says rather meanly, she's actually funny and touching. A good example of this is how Lucy was the first person to say that she was mad at PaulSmith for the accident, which is totally hilarious, yet also poignant. It's too bad that Simon's telling us how his family helped him deal with the accident instead of us actually getting to see it, although it's not too surprising.
Simon "loves" SamVid, who are too young and too stupid to know what happened last summer, and so provide a welcome escape from Simon's depression. Their silliness reminds Simon how lucky he is to be alive. Annoying baby sound effects play that remind me how unlucky I am to be alive. The twins also remind Simon that life goes on, and people in his house are "coming along behind" him. That's probably because they're stalking him. Simon feels bad about leaving them, but he's leaving them in Ruthie's capable hands.
Ruthie will be the hardest person for Simon to leave, but she won't have time to miss him because she's going through puberty with "thoughtful intelligence" and "a great sense of humor" and "high self-esteem." And a lame clear phone, judging by the picture of her talking on it. Simon hopes that he'll always be a "positive influence" on her life. But since he and Ruthie are so close, Simon fears that she "feels his pain" (not really -- wasn't Ruthie the first person to have a good time and tell people to start moving on after the accident?) and distance is a good idea. And he knows that she'll be "just fine" without him anyway.
And the CamRents, who raised Simon "right," and are sending a "man" into the world, and not a boy. Simon is man enough to work through an accident that killed a boy "who was reckless with his life." Because PaulSmith was high (I don't know why Simon's stating as fact what was, a few episodes ago, mere speculation) the night he crashed into Simon without wearing a helmet. And JustinSmith might have given him the weed. And the Smith parents think that they did something wrong (and I'm sure we're supposed to think that they did). And Simon blames himself because, you know, he drove into the kid. But blame doesn't help anything, and in the end no one made Paul get high (even though Frankie and Johnny were blamed for making Mary get "drunk"), ride his bike, and not wear his helmet except Paul.
Admissions Guy 1: You can tell that Simon really feels bad about what happened because he's already found a way to place the blame entirely on the person he killed.
Admissions Guy 2: I'd be much less angry right now if he had just chalked this all up to an accident and not something that was caused by the kid it killed.