Collar sits down with some tea and says that it isn't that he doesn't believe in G-d, but that "it isn't enough" to lead the congregation with. Or his son Malcolm. Ally asks whether Collar hasn't gone through this, in a way, with "hundreds of congregants' families," and doesn't he think he'll come through the hard times himself? Well, Collar's wife, after being shot, asked the shooter to "dial 911," as she was lying there dying. And the fact that she asked her killer that means she believed in a goodness that is...I don't know, not real? And everyone, please take note that DEK is using the numbers of our emergency phone system to refer to a great tragedy and make this everyday poignancy ripe with meaningosity. Don't let it work on you! I'd like to know how they know she asked that. Was the shooter brought to justice and convicted? Did he confess to the crime, and repeat her words? But that doesn't matter. What does matter is, not that she's dead, so much, but that she's so "gone." And "every day she's more gone." Collar cries and apologizes to his son. Malcolm tries to squeeze out a few tears. He's a singer, not an actor. Hey, Ally's hair looks kind of good. The piano switches from sad to hopeful as she begins her stupid monologue, which I wish would be a clip show, because that's how it sounds. She "rejects" what Collar has just said. She recalls Cancer Boy asking her to sue G-d, and Billy dying in her arms, again. She sees him as a ghost, and talks to him in her mind, because "she'll never let him go." And Malcolm should sing to his mom because she's still here, too.

John and Ally are sitting on a couch, talking. She says this case is "playing into [her] biggest fear." Don't they all? Anyway, this week Ally's biggest fear is that "when people are gone, they're gone." She means dead, or written off, like Lisa Nicole Carson, or RDJ, right? The idea that "we all become nothing" bums her out. She asks John to tell her something good. He offers, "We have souls." Ally looks unconvinced. So, how about that town that canceled Christmas? That working out okay? John is all, now, more than ever, we need shit like this, because we have all become "deadened." Has John become "deadened," asks Ally? It's not the town that's lost Christmas, it's John! Oh, the piano is working overtime. John says that shopping makes him feel anxious, and he hasn't lost anything, really. He tries his smile on and it slips.