Call it coincidence if you want, but a commercial tells us that Toccara has also been voted the Cover Girl of the Week! "She's large and in charge...work it girl!!!" says Tormekia F. MeCelle S. thinks that Toccara is "natural and has inner and outer beauty." And Shandrieka C. finds Toccara to be "a real everyday woman." And now, back to our regularly scheduled program.
Back in the apartment, Toccara tells Yaya that Tyra made her cry, and that she was surprised at being brought to tears. She interviews that she has always had to be supportive and strong, and has always served as a shoulder (and substantial bosom) to cry on for those who are in need. She says that she wants to be an inspiration to others, but that her ultimate goal to be the last one standing, and to do that, you have to survive.
Cut to Kelle in the bathroom, who tries to pose in the mirror, and then bursts into tears. Aw, L'il Kel. ["I'm sorry, but that's awesome. For the next several days after this aired, I kept trying to be looking in a mirror when my sister came by so I could do that and crack her up." -- Wing Chun] Kelle interviews that her last three photos have been lousy, and says, "I've had a penis. I've been a deer in headlights in the middle of a cemetery. I've been a platypus that just came from the dentist...I just see myself and I'm like, oh my God, I'm hideous." We see the corresponding photos and are left to decide the veracity of those comments for ourselves. As Nicole and sweet, motherly Amanda ignore Kelle's sobs, Toccara goes in the bathroom, hugs Kelle, and asks what's wrong. Kelle tells Toccara that she cries every time she looks at herself in the mirror, and Toccara says that back in the day (well, earlier this week in real time, I guess) a person couldn't get Kelle's ass out of the mirror, so often would she primp and preen. Toccara interviews that Kelle came into the competition thinking that she was beautiful, but that the judges broke her. Toccara tells Kelle to leave the mirror and come to her room for a talk. Let it be known that Toccara is the greatest.
In Toccara's room, Kelle tells her that she's identified the problem of her face, which is that she has an extra layer of fat ("or something") around her mouth that forms a sort of snout. She points out a photo of a model who has the same kind of snout-face, and Toccara asks why that's ugly. And then Kelle says in total seriousness, "I'm just saying...I was in denial about my snout. And now I know. And so it's just hard to work, you're very limited." And I just want you to take a minute and let the perfection of those words echo through your brain. But all in all, I guess it's a step up from saying that she has primitive-monkey face. In just a few short weeks, Kelle has really embraced her blackness. And one can only hope that soon she'll see her snout not as a limitation, but as a convenient tool for locating and rooting out grubs. As Toccara can attest, learning to love yourself really is the greatest love of all.