Kelly: I never would've let Athena go airborne with you on the Raptor. I would've stopped it, you know that.
Apollo: Yeah, I know that.
Kelly: You better lock me up. And I don't want any trial. I won't stop, I will keep trying. I'll keep at it, I will. I did my job, sir. And I have done my job for two years now. Every day I sent people out to fight. I cleared them all to die. So many people...I just got tired of living with that. You ask that man if you had to choose between giving his life up for a Cylon or a human, what do you think he'd say? I had to do something.
I mean... what does any of that mean? "Fighter pilots die, like Starbuck died for example. This makes me hate my job, because I am confused about the words 'war,' 'fighter' and 'pilot.' Also the word 'job,' and also what it is that I do exactly, which is not what I am saying it is*. Somehow, this has to do with Gaius Baltar, because he is not a pilot, and therefore I am blowing up lawyers. I am also blowing up some pilots, like Sharon, because it's sad when pilots get blown up. But not lawyers. But I hate my job, and plus I am crazy now and a serial killer, and will continue to blow up lawyers, and Sharon, to save the pilots from getting blown up, unless I'm the one blowing them up."
(*This one, I'll give him a pass, because who the hell knows anymore. Helo will probably be LSO and the lunch lady next week, in addition to being a pilot, the Mayor of Dogsville, and Ombudsman for the Lower Four Colonies and the District of Whatthefuck.)
Adama's office for another round of "Dial 'A' For Adama," in which Bill Adama presents us with a completely new personality every five seconds, because he has no internal motivation, because we're strapping on the Apollo Suit and only one character in the scene has a personality or definable goals at any given time, and everybody else is set dressing. And speaking of set dressing, check out the totally demolished model ship in the background for this entire scene. Pretend it means what you think it means, because in this episode you take what you can get, and at least the director's not terrible at his job.
So Bill's on the phone telling Tigh (or whoever the XO might be at this moment) to reinstate Lee as the CAG, then welcoming him back like somebody else was the one that demoted him to Garibaldi. In a way, it was: the Adama From Five Seconds Ago. "I'm sorry. Because I was wrong, and...I made it worse." Made what worse? The grieving? I didn't see any grieving. The Admiral tries to say that Lee should be back in his element, getting over his losses and adjusting to life, but Lee is SO not having that. "I think I should be with Lampkin!" And my grandfather, and whoever else you hate! "Well, now that we know that it was Kelly, we can ease up a little bit on security," says Adama. Because things normally go so well in the Fleet, what with people not turning into serial killers for no reason every couple weeks. "In his condition," which is on a crutch, which is awesome, because Romo Lampkin is like the Colonial Johnny Cochran with the props -- think what he'll do with the crutch! -- Lee thinks Lampkin needs help preparing the his case. Adama reverts back to the beginning of the episode to say that Roslin's looking for aides that can do that. "Dad, why not me? I'm close to the case, I've read the documents. I understand Lampkin's strategy..." You bet you do. Like a cancer in your mind. "We have things under control. Lampkin will have help." Lee reiterates that he wants to do this, and Adama goes nuts some more and makes no sense. "You're a CAG, you're not a lawyer." But until five seconds ago, he wasn't a CAG either, and there's no deep meaning for that, it's just dumb and overly complicated and silly. "What, and you're a judge?" asks Lee, once again sidestepping that it's not professional experience that makes the Admiral a bad choice for the tribunal, but the simple fact that he's the head of the military and one of the two leaders of the Fleet, which is made up of people who have survived like ten of Baltar's attacks that destroyed all but 40,000 people in the entire human race. "No, but like the four other men picked, I'm capable of listening to the evidence and making an ethical decision." Yeah, until this episode I would have agreed, now I don't know what to think anymore. Lee draws a parallel: "And I'm capable of helping Lampkin." Adama tells him to forget it and says he needs him as CAG. Or, you know, Helo, or anybody else that's available and not currently a serial killer. Or any one of a number of dead girls.