And FURTHERMORE -- and oh yes, there's more, and a further besides -- could network-television writers just ONCE make a girl feel GOOD about deciding to have sex? Could the writers on this show not constantly give a girl the green-light for intercourse and then punish her for it? They punished Andie with that whole whodunit letter storyline, they punished Gretchen, and now they've decided to punish Joey too. Oh, not sleeping with Dawson? Well, no orgasm for you, and here's a heaping helping of fight-with-your-boyfriend-the-next-day! Comes with two side orders, guilt and insecurity! Pacey loves her. She's fucked in the head, but she loves him back. They love each other, and that's the best possible world in which a girl can have sex for the first time, and the whole orgasm thing is not only too much information, but it's completely absurd that Pacey wouldn't know whether she'd had one, and wouldn't have given her one. Please. The man slept with a woman twice his age -- he's got the goods. But that's not even the point. The point is that they feel like they have to demonize sex, and it makes me sick. This isn't 1958. I truly hope that the girls who watch this show don't come away from it thinking that sex is this heartbreaking, guilt-ridden, ugly, torturous affair that Changes You Forever, because losing your virginity is a big deal, but I lost my virginity to a pig-dog that I didn't even love, and do you know how I felt the next day? Relieved. Excited. I felt like things would start happening, and I could get ready for them, finally, because I could finally understand what they meant, and then I got rid of the pig-dog and fell in love for the first time, and when you've had sex, love can mean something so much bigger and deeper (ew, not like that). But do they show us that? No. No, they don't. Do they show us a girl having a very real reaction to growing up a bit? No. No, of course not. No, in Televisionland, good girls don't, and if they do, they get to pay for it. I apologize if y'all feel I got too personal in this paragraph. I know it's just a television show. But I can't just sit here and not say anything, because it's infuriating, and the writers get it wrong every goddamn time, and I feel like opening my window like in Network and screaming, "I'm mad as hell, and I'm not gonna take it anymore!" God, I loathe this show.