Dexter's in therapy with Meridian. "She was sitting on top of me, basically naked, asking me to spend the night. I didn't know what to do." Meridian tells him not to beat himself up about it. "Your girlfriend really means something to you, I know that." "Why'd I run away from her?" asks Dexter. Meridian thinks it's for the same reasons he shuts himself off from everyone else. "You're afraid of what they might see." "I think you're right," says Dexter, before asking how he can change that. Meridian suggests that he has to acknowledge that "we all have a big, bad wolf hiding inside of us. A darkness we don't want anyone else to see." "Do you?" "Of course I do." "How do you deal with your wolf?" "First I acknowledge that it's there. Then I let it out for a big meal every once in a while." "At least three times that we know about," Dex VOs. Hee. Dexter wants to get back to the whole "sex thing." Meridian mentions that it's all about sex, in that it's Dexter's fear of real intimacy, not just the act itself, that is indicative of his reluctance to relinquish control. "The minute you start to accept who you are, you might just feel free enough to share that intimacy together." Meridian wants to try a deep relaxation technique to get to the root of some of Dexter's control issues, so he turns off the lights, and tells Dexter to focus on his breathing and think back to a time when he felt completely powerless. As Dexter closes his eyes, he VOs, "This is ridiculous. I could be killing him right now." Heh. Slowly, however, he starts to sink into his memories.
At first we see the same bully from before, picking on Dexter. "Hey, Morgan, still fucking your sister?" Next, we see Teen Dex holding a knife and walking towards a lone figure on an outdoor basketball court, before being grabbed and reprimanded by Harry. "I told you to walk away. Dammit, Dexter! There are consequences to everything you do in life!" The scenes start flashing around quickly. "I found the grave, son," Harry says to young Dex. Teen Dex: "Are you saying I'll be like this forever?" Chopped-up body parts. No blood. Tucci's hand. Baby screams. Dexter, on the couch, is breathing heavily. There's a toddler, a boy, covered in blood and screaming, tears pouring down his face. Dexter opens his eyes. "I have to get out of here," he says, and bolts before Meridian can stop him. Whoa, dude. What was with the kid covered in blood? That was new.