My tape started up a few seconds late (just a few seconds, I promise!) so I drop right in on Ben at Felicity's apartment door, whispering that his father hasn't gotten a liver for transplant yet. Felicity says that she's sorry to hear it, and closes the door behind her. Ben explains that he and his mother both got tested, and Ben isn't a match but his mother is. Felicity thinks that's good news. Ben says that it would be, except that he doesn't want his mother to have the surgery. They pause and stare at each other. Ben totally wants to kiss Felicity. You can just tell. Ben asks Felicity what she's doing over break. Felicity is, like Led Zeppelin, going to California. Pause again. Felicity asks Ben why he's there. Ben offers to leave. Felicity says that she loves seeing him, "but it always ends with you pulling away, and then it just kinda hurts all over again." Ben apologizes. Felicity gathers her courage, then admits that she wants to be with him, and is willing to start over with him in a second. Felicity suggests that that's not what Ben wants. Ben says that he doesn't know. Felicity looks down and half-heartedly smiles, wanting to let him stay but knowing that she shouldn't. She tells Ben that she has to go to bed, and goes back inside. Ben stares at the closed door for a moment before leaving.
Felicity is sitting on her bed, going through her Ben memorabilia. She picks up the necklace he gave her, stares at it for a while, then puts it down. Javier bursts in and asks if they live in "one of those…heartland places" where you leave the door unlocked so that people can drop off pies. Thank you, Javier! It's bugged me that they always leave the door unlocked, even after the shoot-out that happened in last season's winter finale. Javier notices all the stuff on Felicity's bed and asks what's going on. Felicity says that she's packing it up. Javier sits on the bed and asks if it's "Benjamin stuff." Felicity confirms that it is, and Javier says he did the same with his Samuel stuff. He did? I'm so unhappy with this splitting up of Javier and Samuel that seems to have little to no effect on Javier whatsoever. Javier advises Felicity not to read the love letters, but Felicity says that it's too late, and laughs mirthlessly. Javier thinks that it would make Felicity feel better to get all dressed up and go dancing with her friends at the winter formal. Javier already has tickets. Felicity says that she can't go, because she's flying home for winter break that day, to "figure some stuff out." Javier sighs disappointedly, and Felicity promises to return. Javier says he'll miss her, and Felicity says that she'll miss him too.