Becky listens to sad music and looks at a picture of her mother and her as a baby. Cut to Coach answering a knock at his door late at night. It's Becky, and Tami quickly comes out and invites Becky in. At the kitchen table, Becky tells Tami that she has an appointment for an abortion tomorrow and her mother is coming with her. But she wants to know why she feels so weird. And Tami tells her it's cuz it's a hard thing, a hard situation. Tami wonders if Becky has thought about what she wants. But, and this is the heartbreaking thing, abstract talk about decisions like this supposes that a person, given time and reflection, gets to a place where there is clarity and surety. But how could Becky ever get to that place? She is surrounded by people who have expectations and preferences, voiced or not, and then there are the million things that are often cast as trivial -- like not having any money, significantly, the first concern she voices to Tami -- but really are not trivial concerns when it comes to your own life, and what you want for it. So when Tami asks Becky what she wants, Becky can only give her reasons for why she isn't in the position to have any clear wants for her life at all: they have no money, she's only in the 10th grade, this was her first time, and she doesn't want to throw her life away. Then she confesses that it is obvious that her mother wants her to have the abortion, because -- and she knows this -- Becky was her mistake, and she has struggled and hurt her whole life and she wants better for Becky. But Becky rambles on, thinking aloud that maybe she should stop thinking about what her mom wants and think a bit about what she wants, and that maybe she could have this baby and take care of it and love it and be there for it. But then what if she had the baby and spent the rest of her life resenting him or her? And ultimately, even there, that isn't Becky thinking through what she wants, it's her, all tangled up with her mom's shit, spinning out some fantasy alternate life for herself, with a mom who rose above the impossible situation.
Friday Night Lights
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Friday Night Lights