Completely at the end of her rope, Blair just loses what little composure she's got left. "I told Chuck I love him," she says, still smarting and ashamed; Cyrus is overjoyed for her, because Cyrus says More life. "Really? That's wonderful!" She shakes her head. Not enough; think yourself into a fairytale and you'll embarrass yourself every time: "No it's not, it's horrible! I thought that if I could finally say it, then everything would change, but he is just as selfish and soulless as ever!" Her shoulders go round and weak. "Only a masochist could ever love such a narcissist." Cyrus, unaccustomed as yet to Blair's particular mode of speech, just shakes his head, confused. And that's when she hurls herself on him, freaking the fuck out.
"Help me," she sniffs, and he wraps his arms around her. "You don't need help," he says kindly, looking her in the eyes. "He just needs time..." Blair throws herself into his arms again, laughing at herself through the tears: "Wait, not enough." Cyrus nods, and holds her so tightly, and she rests her head on his shoulder, desperate for a father again. "Don't worry," he says. "It'll all be okay." Eleanor walks by and is struck by the sight; she smiles lovingly at them, the little scene they don't know they're making; her beloved daughter's perfect comfort, and knows she's made the best decision of her life. "You'll see, dear," Cyrus says, and holds her gratefully. All it took to open her heart was love, but to hold her together afterward: will love be enough?
Looking for somewhere to stand and stay
I leaned on the wall and the wall leaned away
CeCe returns to the Palace, ducking away Lily's questions about her meeting with Andrew Tyler. "Serena's at breakfast and Eric's out with Jonathan, so we can talk," Lily says firmly, and CeCe says only that it went "very well." Accustomed to her mother's scheming, Lily assumes it's back under the rug. "Thank you, Mother. This was the right thing, I know it was." CeCe doesn't lie, exactly; she speaks in epigrams and riddles and gives with one hand while taking with the other, but she doesn't lie: "If you say so. But the closing of this chapter leads us to the opening of the next one."
CeCe pours her coffee carefully, modulates her voice no less so, offhand and conversational: "What are you going to do about the fact that you're in love with Rufus Humphrey?" Lily stares at the ceiling. "Well, I'm not sure I'm gonna do anything, at least not right away." CeCe, smugly sipping: "So you are in love with him. I was fishing." Lily's almost amused. "Oh? Well, you caught me. Considering the circumstances, I have tried with all of my strength to fight it. It is a curse I do not wish on my worst enemy." And as Serena walks in, she nods. "But I love Rufus." Serena is shocked. "So that's why Chuck was so upset," she says, and storms away to her bedroom, Lily in hot pursuit, begging to explain.