Leave all your love and your longing behind
You can't carry it with you if you want to survive
Rufus comes harrumph-harrumphrying down the stairs with his pissy little suitcase, but guess what? Jenny done vanished again. Probably to go shoot drugs in the park and send Rufus phonecam videos of it. WHERE THE FUCK IS ERIC VAN DER WOODSEN? The writer in me is happy they haven't yet had him come swooping in like the beautiful angel of peace he always is -- And isn't he going dark? Or did we already run that course? -- but the Lily-lover in me is like, "She has no family left AT ALL. Even her junky bullshitty Humphreys are trickling out the door. Serena hates her for the vdDub Thing, Rufus hates her for the vdDub Thing -- and we still barely even know what the vdDub Thing entails -- CeCe's doing her Schrödinger's Cat thing somewhere upstate, Daniel and Charles barely ever acknowledge her, Eric has vanished into the adorable gay dimension where he lives most days..." What's left? Chardonnay.
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Struck from a great height
By someone who should know better than that
When S gets to Chez Waldorf, Nate's on that couch he was on before. Maybe it's becoming his Lily Couch and he will just live on that couch with a glass of wine and a copy of Backdraft. The good thing about the Lily Couch is that everybody knows where to find her (although I'm perturbed that we still don't know where that fireplace room actually lies, in terms of the PRADA superstructure itself). Serena's immediately like "Hell," and leans against a pillar for the rest of this scene looking like she's about to barf. Where was she? Stalking Elizabeth some more. How come? Because she is going nuts about What Happened In Santorini. Which is what? Too much for Nate's brain to even process, but she explains anyway. After a long, beautifully tortured argument with herself.
(This may be Blake's best episode of the season, looking at the whole hour. I certainly have climbed aboard this entire storyline; for the first time, it seemed incredibly sad to me this week. Girlfriend's like a Whack-A-Mole with the issues, but it feels like they've played out this season with her so well that vdDubs finally makes sense as an underlying factor, and not just a hateful "Daddy Issues" stereotype about women. And a lot of that comes about through this week's mannered, compassionate performance from old Blake.)
"Because of my dad. I've been trying to find him. I just want to talk to him, to understand why he left. I've come close to finding him... I tracked him down last summer. But, um, he didn't want to see me, and he wrote me a letter explaining. He was with my mother." Nate gets why that's a problem, and thus why she dumped her mother halfway through Hudson Hero. "And I felt like, somehow... His letter meant something. You know? But the truth is, he knows who I am now, and he hasn't come to find me. I think talking to Elizabeth made me finally realize that he just... Doesn't want to be found." (Which I think is precisely as true as Elizabeth's entire story, which is to say: Entirely true, but also a total lie.)