Carrie: "I'm supposed to stay away from you."
Nick: "Oh, Carrie. No, it's fine..."
Carrie: "I did make that promise."
Nick: "So, how are you?"
Open as a window, with the sun streaming in. She would smile without any other thoughts behind it except to smile, hello, I am normal. The things about me that disgusted you are gone, burned out in a clinical fire. I tore my life apart and rebuilt it and now I'm just a girl, she'd be saying. Just a girl who bears you no ill will, who is everything you ever wanted: I am finally the girl we both wanted to love.
Carrie: "I am great. Actually, I owe that to you. You said I should get help, and I did. Long road back. You kind of ... saved me."
The kind of man who becomes a Marine, she'd be thinking. The kind of man who becomes a terrorist, the kind of man who would love a broken girl: They all want to hear that one. She'd put it in her pocket, intending it for later -- "You saved me" -- and then pull it out in the first ninety seconds, like eating dessert first. She'd apply it mindfully, to overpower and distract the asset. She'd say it desperately, to entrap the man she loves. She'd say it honestly, because it is true.
Carrie Mathison would laugh at herself, embarrassed for having said too much.
She laughs at herself, embarrassed for having said too much.
Carrie: "Anyway, I'm sure you're busy. Congressman!"
Nick: "And what about you? Are you back here?"
In a way, Carrie would say. Provisionally I'm back with the CIA for one last party. One thing I wasn't so wrong about. She give him a sidelong guarded smile with that one, because she gets the thing about him that not even Jessica understands (although Dana might): He is very rarely lying. Even when he's not telling the truth. So if Carrie ran into him on the steps of Langley, she would also be dealing with the man she accused wrongfully. She would look into his eyes, concerned and ashamed, but proud of him for moving past it, into glory. And then that too, she'd take away.
Carrie: "In a way. I, actually, can't tell you."
Carrie: "I have good boundaries now! It's part of being well!"