Night shot. Joan gets on a bus, and I'm dead sure she's going to see Cute Guy God, but it's Mrs. LandingGod. She sits down next to her, stares straight ahead, and says, "You knew and you didn't tell me. That's your idea of justice." She claims, "I don't interfere. You know that." Oh, please. What a crock. Like when you framed Joan for the egging of Price's car? Just to name the most recent incident. I don't care if God isn't perfectly consistent, but at least don't make God an out-and-out liar, thanks. Joan: "Yeah, well, maybe free will wasn't such a great idea." Then she adds, "I believed in him." Mrs. LandingGod: "I know. That's what makes it hurt so much." Well, that and fifty other things I can think of. Joan sighs, and wells up a little, asking, "What did I do to deserve this?" Mrs. LandingGod: "Nothing. This isn't punishment, Joan. It's simply part of being alive. Of being involved. Of loving." I guess it'll do until actual punishment comes along, though. Joan crosses her arms: "I'm not doing that anymore. I'm never doing that again." Spoken like a true romantic. Mrs. LandingGod says, "I know how painful this is." Joan snorts. "But what you and Adam had was beautiful, too. And that was every bit as real as the pain you're feeling now. You experienced how deeply two people can be connected." Joan asks, "So what do I learn when someone that I trust destroys all that, huh?" Well, not to trust anybody ever again, for starters. And also, eventually, how much therapists charge per hour in your area. Joan rants through her tears: "Maybe it was never real. Maybe you're not even real this whole morality thing right and wrong it's all just junk. We're all just animals, taking what we want." Mrs. LandingGod asks her, "Do you know what innocence is, Joan?" She snaps, "You know, I don't want Mock Trial right now!" Mrs. LandingGod explains, "It's more than an absence of guilt. It's having faith that there's goodness in the face of cruelty and pain." Joan's face crumples up some more as Mrs. LandingGod puts her arm around her, saying, "Someplace, you still feel that way." Joan lets her head fall on God's shoulder, as Mrs. LandingGod continues, "And that's me. And I'll always be there. Oh, honey." She pats Joan's shoulder as the camera switches to an angle outside the bus, and we watch the bus drive off down the street, as a song called "Where Were You" by Kathrin Shorr plays. "Where were you / When I needed you most?"













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