You're no Tammy Lynn Michaels!
I hated those interviews. I'd change the pronouns whenever I'd talk about relationships. You know? "She" would become "he" and "her" would become "him." I hated doing those. And even in that Teen Vogue article I did, I was talking about something very personal to me, my issues about weight and body image, but I couldn't talk about my own struggle with my sexuality. It was frustrating because I knew that I was projecting something that I'm not. I want to be happy, and when I'm eighty it's not going to matter how much money I've made or what my fans think of me, but if my bed is empty because I've been a liar my whole life, then I've wasted my whole life.
And so -- I finally came to the point where I couldn't live my life like that. And everyone is telling me, "Don't do it, you're young and you're pretty and you have your whole career ahead of you and you're going to ruin everything," and I was like, "You know, I have to decide what my priorities are." So I took their priorities and threw them out the window and put mine in place. I literally landed in a shrink's office and I was like, "I'm going crazy!" And he was like, "Okay, your life is totally fragmented and there are cracks all over the place. You've got to pull yourself together and figure out how to simplify your life." And I was like, "The only way I know how to do that is to start being honest." And so I had started down that path and then I met Melissa.
Okay, so now I'm getting back to the question you asked me twenty minutes ago [laughs]. I was thrust into the public eye because of Popular but because it wasn't really me, I was very detached from that "Tammy Lynn Michaels" out there. But now people really are getting to know who I am and they know who I love, and I haven't hidden anything. But they don't know much about me, but the fact is that that side of me is out there, literally served up to society on a silver platter, like, "Okay, you're either going to eat this, or you're going to throw it back in my face." So that's a whole new experience, but to tell you the truth, I would much rather have my honesty and my truth thrown out there, than have to hold everything back.
Don't get me wrong. I'm fully capable of having crushes on boys. I won't marry them, but I would so make out with them. I had a boyfriend in high school, he was such a great guy, we used to laugh and laugh. I like women for the most part, but men are hot. That's the best part of being an actress, you get to make out with all these hot men without having to date them afterwards. I am the first person to grovel and drool when Ashton Kutcher comes on the screen. The guy is gorgeous.