Gemma's waiting for Jax and Tara at their house when they come in with their kids. She says she's there to return the house key. Tara spirits the boys away, and Jax comes over to the kitchen table, takes the key and asks, "That it?" Gemma says, "No. Sit down." Jax very pointedly remains standing. Gemma sighs and says, "Please," and Jax reluctantly sits with a big, elaborate O! To have been an orphan! sigh.
Gemma says, "I can count the times I've really been happy on one hand. You and your brother... Abel and Thomas..." Jax is wondering if this is going anywhere. Gemma continues, "I like Nero, Jax. I haven't felt... light in a very long time. (Tara joins them, glaring daggers) The thing you want me to do? With Clay? I can't do both. And you're right. We lay down together, things get old and familiar. If I'm going to go back to that place, I need to know that what you promised is real. Not from you. From her." Tara says levelly, "I'm aware what Jax asked you to. And if you help him get what he needs from Clay, you can have that key back. And the family that goes with it."
Hey, remember how in the first episode of the series, we were all pearl-clutchy over Gemma giving Wendy a syringe full of smack and telling her to kill herself as penance for what she did to Abel? Doesn't that seem refreshingly forthright compared to what Tara's doing here?
(Come on: If Tara's really that livid over Gemma nearly killing the boys, then she'd be Done, no negotiating about it. Tara's going along with Jax's "Pimp My Mom" plan because making the older woman -- and, let us not forget, sexual assault survivor -- grovel for grandkid access after performing sexual acts with her abuser is a form of petty revenge.)
Anyway, Gemma gets up to go and Jax asks, "You good?" Gemma says softly, "No, son. I'm really not," then goes.