In a night-vision interview, Julie says that Twila's "outburst" was "a heinous insecurity projected on [everyone else]," and that it was also handy, in that Julie plans to use it against her. I'm not sure I think "heinous" makes a great modifier for "insecurity," all things considered, but her basic point is well taken, in that Twila is clearly feeling very guilty and is finding it hard to believe that people have felt the need to pile on when she's already expressed regret. Specifically, I think Twila was angry at Eliza because she and Eliza had talked about it, and Twila had told Eliza that she regretted it, and I think she thought Eliza should maybe have at least credited her apology for something when siding with Ami about the entire thing. Julie and Eliza huddle together for the night, and as Scout listens in with concern, Julie talks again about how Twila's remarks were "uncalled for," and Eliza sucks up the sympathy on the basis that she claims (again) that she was in the middle of apologizing when Twila got so upset. In an interview, Eliza recaps rather unnecessarily the bit about Twila getting angry around the fire, and winds up coming around to the predictable "she's the one who did it, so she has to live with it" thing. Which is easy to say when it's not you doing the living with, because it's safe to say that everybody has done things they'd rather not have thrown in their faces four thousand times. Many of mine have been done just this week, and only one of them involves putting my jacket on inside-out.
The morning of Day 34 dawns, and some little animal that looks like the head of a mouse and the body of a slug -- seriously, what is that thing? -- is trying in vain to remain on a rock as the water tries to wash him off. Twila is still looking rough, sort of stomping around camp and not wanting to talk to anyone. Julie's comments that Twila was feeling "insecurity" over what she had done are, again, certainly spot-on -- that's what I meant last week about Ami being very good at intentionally finding and twisting the knives that are going to hurt people the most. Just because Twila effectively got rid of Ami doesn't mean that Ami didn't do a good job of putting a scar on her, just as Ami intended to do. Twila is a single mom; Ami disparaged her as a mother, just as she disparaged Scout's sexual identity. Ami's very skilled at finding the thing that's going to be most painful to say and saying it, and the fact that she didn't keep herself in the game doesn't undo what she did, unfortunately. Anyway, Twila and Eliza exchange "morning"s, and Eliza whispers to Julie, "Why is she so mad?" "'Cause of her issue," Julie says. Wow, sharp. And specific. "She's holding a grudge," Eliza says. Julie agrees thusly: "Against herself, towards us, mostly towards you." A what? Can I get a schematic diagram on that, possibly? Because that's going to take a lot of arrows. As Twila continues to walk around not talking to anyone, Chris interviews that he knew this entire sequence of events was not good for the plan. Twila was alienating Julie and Eliza, and Chris didn't want to see anything upset the four-person alliance that he's still hoping to take into the final four. "[Twila's] taking a road she doesn't need to take," he says. And then we watch Twila spit a mighty mouthful of water onto the ground. Which is pretty nasty, but I can't really complain, because I suspect it's hard not having a toothbrush, and whatever grunge you can take off your teeth with water, it's not like I can blame you.