In the meeting, Clay says that they want him off the team, according to them, and Alla says that's not true. And I think it's pretty hair-splitting to bring that stuff out of the Boardroom simulacrum -- where they are after all asked whom, out of them all, should go -- into real life, but on the other hand, they totally do actually hate him. Felisha again bottom-lines it, and again I'm glad she keeps stressing this: "Regardless of what happened, we're a team today." This is one of the positive things that Felisha shared with Kristi, even though Kristi actually meant it not at all, and I think Felisha does: "Just get over it. We're all robots here, right?"
Clay goes swimming again in the deep, deep pool of his own emotions about how he needs to "learn to trust [them-slash-Alla] again," which is the kind of flesh-crawlingly needy emotional warfare that is appropriate in zero out of infinity situations. It's giving them the responsibility for stepping out of reality and into the Wounded World of Clay Done Wrong, and if they fail to do so -- which they will, because it's impossible, because he's bughouse crazy -- he gets to be justified in not "trusting" them in the first place. They "trusted" your ass not to be creepy in front of a hundred unemployed New Yorkers, dude. Get that trust back. Only two kinds of people can actually say that crap: the similarly odious abuse-hound Jessica from Laguna Beach: The Real Orange County, and any cast member of Swan's Crossing, which was cancelled when Clay and I were both children.
Felisha's like -- you wonder why I like Felisha so much, but this episode really does it for me -- "Do we want to be led by someone who doesn't trust anybody on the team?" And Clay says, unhinged, "I think you do. I think you do." Adam wonders aloud what the hell kind of logic that is, and then Clay...actually says something smart. "Because I'm going to work harder than anybody else to win this." And that's something I truly do believe: it's the whole Tallyrand/Fouché thing where your enemies have to work harder to impress you because there's not a lot of goopy emotional shit involved, just wounded trust on both sides. Adam agrees it's valid, because if you subtract anything goopy or emotional or less-than-100\% analytical from the situation, he becomes really smart.













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