Paul comes home again, after the appointment -- "I know you're here because your car's in the driveway and the smell of cruelty's in the air," he calls to the empty house -- and finds her there, sunning herself in the backyard. No sunblock, no shame: Just Cathy and the sun.
She's startled again, and embarrassed to be seen. Covers up quickly, hissing at him. He accuses her once again of having an affair, half-heartedly, and asks what she's even doing today. "You're lying naked in broad daylight in the middle of our yard. I mean, I like it. don't get me wrong..."
On their honeymoon the Jamisons went to France. She wore a bikini and worried about it. Bikinis are cruel to everyone; there was cruelty in the air. But on the topless beach, there were women there -- all sizes, all ages -- with their tops off. And Cathy felt so ugly. Five pounds too many, breasts already sagging. She had no idea. She was afraid of her body.
"I've been looking at old photographs, and you know what? I was pretty cute back then. But I couldn't feel it."
Paul swears he told her to go topless, that day in France. He's wrong, but not by a wide margin: It wasn't because she wasn't beautiful, it was because she was too beautiful. He'd get an erection, and have to hide it. He was afraid of his body.
"Speaking of which," Cathy smiles, and he buttons his jacket, grinning. He's proud of her body, he loves it. She didn't know. "You wanna do something about this?" he asks, just sweetly enough that she thinks it'll be okay. An intermittent lawn mower starts up again, just long enough: "Yeah. I want to do it in the grass!" The intermittent lawn mower shuts down again, as he whispers with a childlike glee, "Really? You want me to do you in the ass?"
The spell is broken. God, Paul. And besides, she has to get Adam from Brent's. She's rushing inside when Paul shakes his head, confused. "I just dropped him off at school to get on the bus for camp. He said you changed your mind..."
(We clean up after them and we shut the cabinets, and most of all we let them get away with it when they play the Homer Simpson card. In no way did Paul believe that she had changed her mind. But he wanted Adam to love him. And he wanted six weeks to get his wife back. So he threw his hands up in the air and shrugged and said, "If you say so." That's why. That's as clear as you can make it.)













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