Jillian sends Hannah off on a jog so she can talk to Rulon and figure out what his deal is. She asks about his personal life, and he tells her about that wife that he love so much. (He briefly mentions that there have been multiple wives, but doesn't elaborate.) His wife tried to do whatever she could to help him get healthy, but he ate to fill a void in his life. Jillian asks what that void was, and Rulon says it was true love. Even after he was married to his current wife, he still doubted it, and eventually became embarrassed to even be intimate with her. He knows that it's about him seeing that he's worthy, and acknowledges that he's sabotaged things so far. Jillian tells him that he has to find a way to feel worthy.
Brett takes his Red Team on a hike slash run. The hills are alive with the sound of grunting. Brett tells Justin, Courtney and Jen that he wants them to go stand by themselves for a moment or two and reflect upon why they're really there. Courtney thinks about where she was a little over a year ago, when she felt so deep in a hole that she could never get out. Now she's almost lost 200 pounds, and can see the surface. Jen says that before she came to The Biggest Loser, strong was just a word. Now it takes on a whole different meaning, and she's been pushed to do things she never thought was possible. Justin says it's overwhelming to realize that after 12 weeks he's a different person. He's become satisfied and grounded with who he is, and says it's great to become the person he's always wanted to be. He cries a little, and says that he feels like a better person inside too. It's cool to admit that you're special, he says, and Charlie Sheen agrees. Justin adds that he appreciates having this moment. They have a group hug, and Brett notes that the emotional stuff is way harder than the physical.













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