Back on the mountain, the Blue Team is jubilant, if emotionally stunted. Bob says he thinks they're all brothers. That comment just made me a little bit sick. I want to use a Big Mac to suppress the memory of him saying that. Anyway, dude man like hike. They do another "Pride" on three. They're here, they're queer, their emotional eating issues will not disappear unless they dig into their pasts.
Now Paul is in with Mama Jillian. He thinks there are things that happened in his past that could be contributing to his current state. He doesn't remember a lot of his childhood. And then, oh shit. Paul's dad used to have things called "sessions," which basically involved beating the shit out of Paul. Paul always thought he was a bad kid. Jillian's mom tells Paul that this sounds like severe physical abuse -- it was violence, not discipline. She says that Paul's dad was a weak person and had no strength, and that his actions had nothing to do with Paul's character. Paul would shut himself in his room for days and eat to escape. He has survived his own personal war, says Jillian's mom, and he is suffering from the effects of that trauma and hasn't had anyone help him with it. He acknowledges that he's never talked about it before. Dr. Phillian, Sr. says that he can get help for it, and has to get help for it. He took a big first step in daring to talk about it, which is a start in helping him to heal. I don't know if I can handle this anymore. In any case, Jillian is keen on her mom, and knew that she could help the contestants become conscious and aware of their behaviors, help them to take responsibility, and help them to establish support once they go home, so they can continue on their healthy journeys.
After the therapy session, Kelly tells Paul that she noticed a change in his mindset. He says that he got a lot of things out, and it was like a weight was lifted off of him. And then, it's back to the game. Bernie, Brittany and Maggie are pretty tight-knit, she says, so if they're below the yellow line it's three against two. She's ready to fight like hell to stay there as long as they can. While the other contestants sleep peacefully, Paul engages in his midnight workout. I don't know whether to think it's therapeutic or a sign of his pathology. Either way, I hope it helps him to shed some poundage.