Instead he says that she pushed him away and into something (or someone) else. That what he had with Kristen was unlike, somehow greater than anything he's ever had -- because, for the first time, he wasn't worried about Audrina. And I guess that's the closest to an acknowledgement we'll ever get from JB. And what a shitty way to do it: "I really cared for you, even though I still won't admit it. Only now that I've ceased to care for you can I love again. Except you ruined that, you mind-gaming bitch. So I spit on you and your feelings, because now I have known for a split-second what you felt for four year running. You're a monster!!!"
Audrina just sputters out a gravely wounded, deeply confused, "Well..." before picking up her things and leaving JB by himself to unfurl the years of drugs and self-hatred, not to mention the serpentine twists of logic that got him to this royally damaged place. Rihanna sings us out:
Say a prayer to yourself.
He says close your eyes,
Sometimes it helps.
And then I get a scary thought:
That he's here means he's never lost.
Audrina gets in her car, buries her head in her hands to compose herself before driving home alone -- for good, this time (knock on wood).
And you can see my heart beating.
You can see it through my chest.
And I'm terrified but I'm not leaving,
Know that I must pass this test.
Next week: There's a civil war a-brewin' at the Speidi Web. Heidi's secret weapon? A home-cooked meal! Aaaaaaaaah! Jayde texts Kristin for a meet-up, then tells her to "go back, like, wherever it is [she] came from." Mighty strong words from a person whose American work permit lists "Full Frontal" as an employment prerequisite. Her words are a little sweeter with Brody as she professes how much she loves and misses him. Meanwhile, JB leaves a voicemail to tell Kristin he ended his nonexistent relationship with Audrina.