(The particulars aren't really important and frankly I think it sells everybody short when we set the bar for sexual and abuse trauma so terribly high because then you're like, "Well, did that count as abuse? I didn't get raped for six hours or anything, so how could I possibly compare my situation to that, or give it merit? Best to just soldier on without reporting it." When a culture rates and hands out victim-attention as highly as ours does, it's hard to know or justify your own pain and history, because there's always something worse making you feel like a whiner.
It's insidious and gross and not just about those kinds of abuse or trauma either: Just because your entire family isn't dying of lymphoma and you aren't missing the majority of your limbs doesn't mean you don't deserve a hug from Ty Pennington. Or from anybody, really. And then in this case, my fear is that if Holly ever goes dark it's going to be like, "Well, if she'd just gotten raped a couple times probably she would not have blown up the town through witchcraft, but you know, she got super-raped, so probably that's what happened there. You know how women are.")
"And every day I face not only my memory of that, but that part of me who... Who wants to feel sorry for herself, and expects the worst out of people. But that's not who I was raised to be. And I still believe that people are worth trusting. And every day, that piece of me gets a tiny bit stronger and wins out just a... A tiny bit more."
Tara's face as she watches this goes from shame, to fear, to pain, to sadness, to acceptance, to a doubt that she'll ever have that much peace. And I don't really think Holly will ever go dark, because it's pretty shallow, not to save naïve, to think that a rape survivor's message of strength is in any way comparable to Maryann's self-help trip last year; that any writer, or story (fan fiction aside) could be that callous, or spiritually dead, or sexually sheltered. Bad enough to whine that Maryann lacked merit -- that the best of her wasn't carrying Tara on her back this entire season; that Maryann and Miss Jeanette together gave her the tools she only managed barely to escape with -- but even worse to just assume that because you got bored with Maryann last year, when it got too challenging, that these next three episodes with Holly are somehow going to replicate that boredom. So gross.
Anyway, Sookie's looking at a scrapbook (which always works out so well) and somehow noticing (for the first time) that her family is telepathic superheroes going way back when Hadley calls Sookie to be mysterious and withholding some more. She yells at her for answering the landline and thus not leaving Bon Temps -- which Sookie explains no longer matters, because the bad thing happened; "They came, they gave it their best shot, and I'm still here," she says delightfully and a little grim -- and Hadley just reminds her that Jason and Sookie are the only family she has remaining. (Where is the Queen? Not necessarily related, but what does the Queen think Hadley does all day? "Just another day of running around giving my cousin spooky messages and kidnapping children, you know. Went shopping.")