Anything you repress, it's going to come fuck you up in a resentful way when you least expect it. Nothing new there. But one of the neat things about this show is that it goes both ways: Whatever darkness we have in our consciousness, there's a compensatory unconscious brightness. That's always left out of the conversation because we're so used to being afraid of how we're going to fuck ourselves up unexpectedly. But if you think about how much negative stuff -- pain, fear, self-hatred, regret -- we carry around in our daytime selves, does it not bring you comfort to know that just under the surface there's something shining, just as bright?
His face looks like the whole world ending. Saints do the scariest shit the closer they get to God. And vice versa.
EXIT STRATEGIES (AND BONUS SCENE)
Jason's still kill-crazy when the ladies make their way back to the lobby, and Jessica throws herself on him joyfully. What has been for him a descent into mental disarray and visitations was the opportunity for her to get a little clarity on him: How much she's missed him, how much work she did without him knowing, to keep him safe. He's Hers, and doesn't know it; she's His, and thinks that should be enough. He glares past her until she lets go.
Jess: "I've missed you so much! I've been an idiot, and I love you, and..."
Jason: "-- I can't ever love a vampire. Sorry. I can't do it."
Just like that. At the elevator, Eric and Sookie hang back.
Eric: "We're going to get Bill."
Jason & Pam both: "Oh, for fuck's sake."
Sookie, verbatim: "Make sure it's safe up there for us? We'll be up ... momentarily."
Inside the elevator, Jason twitches and sways.
Tara: "You better not go and get yourself killed, hear? You and I got a date. Long time coming."
Pam, which I am so fucking sure: "If that's not an impetus to survive..."
Momma: "Baby, you still have to kill all the vampires."
Daddy: "You're in an elevator with four of them, for starters."
Jessica: "Uh, Jason? You doin' all right?"
Jason, intensely: "Comin' for you, Warlow."
Nora: "Um, did you just say Warlow? What do you know about Warlow?"
Jason: "...Fuck you just say to me?"