And then there are the girls, coming through the tunnel; boxes full of drugs and sex, boxes waiting to be filled by the highest bidder. "Guillermo said she was his cousin." Esteban says the boxes have to stay boxes, the whole world and shadow economy rests on never crawling down into the tunnel: it's how he builds schools and hospitals in border towns. It's now Nancy provides for her family. "She wasn't Guillermo's cousin," Nancy insists. A guy comes to get Esteban, as usual when things get interesting, and he grins: "Charity calls." Nancy speaks from the clarity of her visions: "It's not enough, your charity." He tells her to go home and sleep, on a pile of boxes as big as the moon. "Nothing is ever enough. But we live, and we try." They kiss, sweetly. And they're both right, but Nancy's more right. If I save your life and kill your friend, are we even?
Nancy goes home to get clean, pouring a bath. Silas arrives to ask her to bankroll a larger grow house. "I need more space," Silas whines; Nancy says, from inside her little box: "You and me both." She reminds him that they've fucked up large-scale operations, grow houses, twice now. He says that this means they've learned, how to do it better, but she says what they've really learned is not to do it anymore. She's right, but Silas is more right, and knows her better than anybody now that Conrad's gone: "Lisa said you would say that." The magic words. The better mother. "Let me think about it." And she swears that's all she's doing.
But you were everywhere beside me, masked/ As who was not, in laughter, pain, and love. I miss Judah too, and I never even met him.
The goth-skanks stare at Shane and Isabelle from another table in the lunchroom. Isabelle looks totally awesome, her gigantic wonderful Leo hair pulled back with a wide headband. She looks like if Carole King were your school counselor. She asks Shane what it was like and he describes it beautifully, and in a very Shane-like way: "Confusing, brisk, messy." He admits that Nancy hit him -- which I hope fucking bites her right in the ass, and knowing this show it will -- when the pressure got to be too much. Ask Celia about how willing Nancy is, to hit you when it gets too scary. I loved U-Turn, but I'm under no illusions: that was one of his gifts too.